Sapphire Sky

May 23, 2010

I Have A Confession…

Filed under: Atheism, agnostic, evolution, etc., culture, humor, theology — theosdoulos @ 5:32 pm

I have a confession to make…in an ever-growing culture of sound bites and video clips, I find that my life reveals “clips” that show a side of me I prefer not be known. In my role as pastor and missionary, I want people to see nothing but a courageous, faith-filled follower of Christ. My hope is that no one can see my occasionally faltering faith. Perhaps I have done a good job so far… or have I? So whether those clips have been observed or not, I have a confession I must reveal.

Before I make my transparent admission, let me tell you about the last 24 hours. Here’s the gist – I have been pursued by a loving God to face a weakness in my walk with Him. Yesterday, after a 40-day ordeal with our aging mini-van, the car broke down again. (What’s sad is that I merely drove it away from the auto shop that just finished repairing the problem. Just 10 miles down the road…viola! ) Trust God is all things? At that moment to any observer the “clip” of my life would reveal anything but a man of faith. I’m amazed to realize how God gets most of the blame for a car not running. Been there and definitely done that!

Then it happened…a long time friend drove up, offered help. However, I politely dismissed his help due to the tow truck on its way (and partly out of embarrassment). He drove away and I sat back down in the van waiting for the tow truck. (I think the driver and I are on first name basis now!) After a few minutes I decided to text the would-be Good Samaritan to thank him for stopping and offering help. But at that moment, he drove up again, jumped out of his car and declared he was not going to leave me stranded. There in the pouring rain, he assessed the problem and sought to make the minor repair to get me back on the road.

After some elbow grease and finding the right tools, the van’s engine purred back to its rustic self. My friend had accomplished what he set out to do. He even followed back me to the auto shop to drop off the car. (I felt this was my only option since the gun shop was closed!) And then he offered me a ride home. Later that night I reflected on the fact that while I was playing the blame game with God, He Himself was already in motion to show His power and care for me. My friend embodied Christ’s love in the flesh for which I am very grateful.

This morning I listened to another long time friend teach from Matthew 6:25-34 about trusting God in all matters rather than worry. This was a timely encounter with God on the subject. As I reflected on this truth I discovered that the last 24 hours revealed a great weakness in my walk with Christ.

So I have a confession (actually two):
First – there are times in my walk with Christ that I act like a Practicing Atheist. Yes, really! I view God as if He does not have control of anything in this world. He might as well be powerless to work on my behalf. Then He sends a Good Samaritan by to prove His power. But that’s not all…

Second – there are times in my Christian experience that I become a Brooding Agnostic. I see God as if He doesn’t care about my circumstances. “Hey, Lord, we’re having a crisis here, jump in anytime you desire…preferably now!” Have I dropped down on His list of priorities? Was I ever on it? Then He sends a Good Samaritan by to show how deeply He cares for me.

There – I confessed it. Now what? Train my heart to trust God: trust Him more, trust Him deeply. In Matthew 6:26 we read the words of Christ “Look at the birds, free and unfettered, not tied down to a job description, careless in the care of God. And you count far more to him than birds.” (The Message)

Today, I’m just learning to be a trusting follower of Christ and be “careless in the care of God.”  How about you?

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7 Comments »

  1. Dave…great application to be able to share! Thanks

    In Charlotte for my electric utilities conference hosted by Duke Energy…I have 160 HR Managers, Directors and VPS coming in starting tomorrow morning.

    Keep plugging away!

    Your Friend,
    Rci

    Comment by Rick Habegger — May 23, 2010 @ 7:26 pm

  2. Brother: Thank you for being transparent for the rest of us. Some day let me tell you about the “clips” in MY walk. It’s at the lowest ebb that I feel His loving hand.

    Comment by Ben LaCorte — May 23, 2010 @ 8:33 pm

  3. David,
    Wow did I relate to that. Thanks for sharing,
    Love ya Borther,
    Norris

    Comment by Norris Pickens — May 23, 2010 @ 9:45 pm

  4. Great post. I have to imagine that many Christians could make the same confessions. But as I look back on some of the hard times or compare them with some much more serious things going on with others, I stop to imagine God saying to me, “Really? You thought that was arduous and difficult?”

    Comment by Anthony — May 25, 2010 @ 2:42 pm

  5. David
    It is so amazing how God works and I know we all could be reminded about our faithful Lord and Savior.
    David…. thank you for this post and your honesty you are my brother in Christ.

    Shawn

    Comment by Shawn — May 25, 2010 @ 11:12 pm

  6. Very good insight to how you were responding to adversity. I will chat with you on the last paragraph as to what does it look like to be trusting Him as we journey along.

    Comment by Dan Coutcher — June 7, 2010 @ 10:56 pm

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